This week has been one for the books. Not the best book I’ve ever read, but one that changes your life nonetheless.
The bible says that God is the same, yesterday, today and for ever. So, whenever I find myself in a situation where I feel far away from God, I’m forced to ask myself: Who moved? If God is constant now and forever and I feel myself detached and disconnected, I usually let out a huge sigh of relief because He makes Himself so easy to find. His plan is always perfect, and I’ve never looked back on anything and wished for God to have done it differently. By this, I don’t mean to say that we have blind faith and just expect things to turn out okay. We’ve been granted wisdom and common sense for a reason. But I also believe that my instincts and intellect are led by God, through God and for God’s glory.
This week we received some unsettling news about our rugby journey and we’ve been forced to re-evaluate our options. We moved to Port Elizabeth and joined the Southern Kings all wide eyed and bushy tailed. Now, almost a year later it almost feels like we have to leave with those same tails, tucked between our legs. And that’s okay. Because I’d rather go into the unknown with God than stay happy and safe without Him. We firmly believe that God closes doors and opens others and because our hearts are knitted to His, we go into that open door wide eyed and bushy tailed each and every time.
As born-again Christians we don’t experience different emotions than the rest of the world. We just choose to act on those emotions differently than the rest of the world. We feel scared and embarrassed and angry, just like anyone would when you suddenly find yourself on unknown territory. But because my tongue is such a sharp weapon, I choose to speak life and love and hope. I choose to not dwell on failures and start thinking about the future. I choose to find God where I’ve always found Him- in the eyes of my child or the loving embrace of my husband. I choose to seek him out in His Word or in prayer. I choose to see God in the face of a stranger or an encouraging word from a fellow believer. I choose to seek the light in the darkness and follow Him into the unknown (and yes, I am singing the theme song of Frozen in my head as I write this).
We might not know what our next move is, but I know it will be a God move and we are ready, wide eyed and bushy tailed!